Sunday, November 27, 2005

speak no evil...see no evil..hear no evil...

well this is my new blog layout...

hav been searching for a nice layout for the past few days and suddenly today i stumbled upon this one...ahhhhhh...i just couldnt resist the temptation to try it on.

ahhahahah...i really like the message it's trying to convey to everyone..
something tat speaks abt wats in mind....:P

i liked quite a few templates from here...but sigh..the ladies pics were kinda too sexy..so i didnt want all my young n innocent blog readers to get the wrong impression of me..so i had to resist the temptation to use them..:(

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

flashback..

i was at the KTM station waiting for the delayed train (as usual)...if i dont go tru this at least once a week then i guess that week would be incomplete..thanks KTM.

anyway i was kinda glad tat the train was delayed...while sitting there..finally enjoying some free moment without facing lines n lines of codes in front of me...i suddenly started thinking abt the times when i used to be free...when i was back in school with my dear frens.
ahhhh..all those memories...i wouldnt exchange it with anything in this world.those were some of the best moments of my life.
as i was dreaming away suddenly this particular incident came into my mind.i tot of sharing it with u guys...read on..;)..(its a long post..pls dun grumble)

it was in year 2000, my SPM year..n somewhere around mid-year, i was selected to participate in the Star Quiz Quest in KDU with a couple of my best mates.
well..dun wory...i didnt even bother flipping tru more than 2 pages to equip myself for the quiz(i had enuff stuffs to read during tat year)...
anyway we went..reached there in the morning with a whole lot of other skool students from all over the country.
the whole lobby was crowded like a pasar malam..n finally they told us to gather up and get into the respective halls/rooms. so we walked around to find the right room and somehow we found it and started queing up.
the room that we got was actually a hall...kinda big actually..n so we moved in...and since we were the first few to reach there..we ended up at the front row in the hall.
we setlled down and so did the rest of the students.
after everyone was quiet...one of the facilitator got up to the stage n told everyone that if we need a a pencil,pls raise our hands up...and i was like...we came all the way n dun think we wouldnt even bring a pencil..oh c'mon..
n as expected some kids forgot their pencil, and was busy raising their hands up to get it..n while the other facilitators were giving out the pencils to the kids, this guy on the stage continued givin announcements...n tis was the announcement tat caught my attention..

"Please make sure that all the students here are from KL schools..I REPEAT make sure that all the students here are from Kuala Lumpur schools..any1 not from KL sitting down here, would be disqualified.."

and i guess u guys can imagine what happened next...me n my frens started looking at each other..panicking..as we're actually categorized under the Selangor schools.
ohh god...y must it be now....and we had to act quickly...without much choice...i raised my hand...and one of the facilitator approached me thinking tat i needed a pencil..n when she came near..i explained to her our stupid situation.and she said with a smile..."ok wait..i shall discuss with the head facilitator".

and i was kinda relieved that she didnt scold us or somethin..she was so friendly n all.so all the panic feeling kinda subsided a little..we tot she would work somethin out for us.
and yeah..she did do something... a BIG favour indeed..

she went straight to the guy speaking on the stage and explained to him the problem.
and you know what that guy did?

he straightened up...and grabbed the mic..
(mind u that the whole hall was filled with almost 300 students..n we were sitting sumwhere around the 2nd row from front)....
n so he made the GRAND announcement....here it is

"My dear students...apparently there are some children here who's unable to read instructions...they are in a room where they are not SUPPOSED to be..how dumb...how dumb..aiseh...these ppl dunno from which jungle skool ...dunno how to read and write..i really dont know why they r coming for competitions..seriously..."

and we didnt need to hear more...we got up like a bunch of idiots and headed towards the exit...when the WHOLEEEEE ENTIRE hall was staring at us....OMG OMG...why on earth did we hav to sit SOOOO BLOODY IN FRONT!!!
the journey back to the exit seemed like the longest walk i ever took in my entire life...it was hellll!!
and no...this stupid clown did not stop his announcement..he continued..insulting us...arghhhh...i would hav got up the stage n giv him a hard kick up his ass for being such an asshole.

aihh..and so we walked ..walked...and walkeddddddddddddddd ddd ddd ddd...to the damn door...finally we reached it n the moment we got out...we shut the door behind n walked as fast as we could AWAY from that place...far far away...the embarrasment we went tru..i really hav no words to describe.
and the whole place was deserted...thankfully...at least we had some time to think.
and then we started arguing on whether or not to continue with this..as we were already soo late.everyone would hav started writing by now.
n my fren said tat our teacher would skin us alive if we went out without completing the damn quiz.
aihh..wateverla..lets just look for the damn bloody room.
so up n down we went searching for the cursed room.
and then....i saw something...

ash : "hey nita, wats tat in your hand?...i dont remember seeing u bringing anything besides a pencil just now...how come now u hav something extra?"

Nita : "ehhh..wat extra..where got?..."(..starts looking around..)

ash : "THERE...there....the white paper...whats that?"

and so we got the 2nd heart stopping shock for that day...

my clumsy fren BROUGHT THE QUESTION paper out!!!

OMG OMG...WE'RE gonna die...exactly what we need now...more publicity...they r gonna setup a PA system and announce this to the entire KDU Complex!!!
all we need is for a facilitator to spot us wondering outside the room with a question paper in our hand...

ash : "ok ok...dun panic..dun panic..i know wat to do...we just go back to the smiling facilitator just now who helped us to get out of the big hall and just tell her wat happened...im sure she can help us out...dun wory she's a nice lady...c'mon lets go"

yeahh..dream on..

hahahha...well we half wanted to keep the paper..but then realized tat we're in enuff trouble as it is...we dont need more..and so quickly saw an empty classroom and opened the door and dumped the paper inside...and we continued looking for the room...we were exhausted by the time we found it..everyone inside tat room was alreday like half way tru answering..but thankfully tis time we really met a "nice" lady..she said its ok and gave us 30 minutes extra to finsh our paper..

hahahha..well tat was one hell of an experience..we laughed n laughed after tat recalling back wat we did...in the end it was fun.
doing stupid stuff with ur mates is always something to remember...these memories would always cheer u up when u feel all bored n alone...

cheers my frens...;)

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

its been quite some time..

yeah its been quite some time since i last updated my blog..and i checked my blog today and somehow it looked so sad...as if its dead.
well, dun worry a book of ash, ashes wil do all he can to keep u alive...

sighh...this mundane programemr's life is k i l l i n g me...i seriously dunno wat on earth im doing here...and also back home.
when im asleep im dreamin of failing to connect my application to the damn MySql server...and when i wake up , the first thing tat pops my mind is to type a particular search query on google and search for the right code that i hav been looking for and then so scared tat i might forget it...i quickly grab a paper and write it down before i brush my teeth.

how can this actually happen?
im supposed to be sleeping u know and the first thing i wake up..this thing pops up in my mind...for heaven's sake...i havent even opened my eyes fully....! and im having something in my head...where did it come from!
is my soul doing some part time job?

sighhh..tat makes me wonder was i really sleeping...?
no wonder im yaaaaaawnnnnninnnggg away in the office...T__T

n after im ready..i sit in front of my pc n try out the code since i still hav some time before i leave for work.
...where is my life....

how i wish i was doing somethin tat i enjoyed..h o w i w i s h

during lunch today this question suddenly poped out and one of colleague said tat he wants to become a chef and has an idea of opening a restaurant with 3 floors..one for malaysian food..one for chinese/korean/japanese food and another one for italian food..hebat eh?
i never knew we had a chef in house.
anyway...at least he has a dream..and it seems he's cooking at home to try out new stuffs.
not bad..i tot.at least he has a life of his own..something to enjoy abt...and he's working towards achieving it...

wat am i doing at home?
i dunno...
do i hav a dream?
i hav...
wats ur dream?
to catch fish...
are u doing anything abt it?
G O K....

*i tried asking myself these questions spontaneously...and these are the answers i got..
pls dont ask me y...

sighh...but i know something can be done...its just tat i need the starting point...a hard pinch...someone to kick me off...to wake me up and to tell me to get out of it and move the way i want...to do the things i dream off...to hav the satisfaction of living as a human before i die..

sighhh..where is this person..?
when will she/he come?......
im waiting...