its been quite some time..
yeah its been quite some time since i last updated my blog..and i checked my blog today and somehow it looked so sad...as if its dead.
well, dun worry a book of ash, ashes wil do all he can to keep u alive...
sighh...this mundane programemr's life is k i l l i n g me...i seriously dunno wat on earth im doing here...and also back home.
when im asleep im dreamin of failing to connect my application to the damn MySql server...and when i wake up , the first thing tat pops my mind is to type a particular search query on google and search for the right code that i hav been looking for and then so scared tat i might forget it...i quickly grab a paper and write it down before i brush my teeth.
how can this actually happen?
im supposed to be sleeping u know and the first thing i wake up..this thing pops up in my mind...for heaven's sake...i havent even opened my eyes fully....! and im having something in my head...where did it come from!
is my soul doing some part time job?
sighhh..tat makes me wonder was i really sleeping...?
no wonder im yaaaaaawnnnnninnnggg away in the office...T__T
n after im ready..i sit in front of my pc n try out the code since i still hav some time before i leave for work.
...where is my life....
how i wish i was doing somethin tat i enjoyed..h o w i w i s h
during lunch today this question suddenly poped out and one of colleague said tat he wants to become a chef and has an idea of opening a restaurant with 3 floors..one for malaysian food..one for chinese/korean/japanese food and another one for italian food..hebat eh?
i never knew we had a chef in house.
anyway...at least he has a dream..and it seems he's cooking at home to try out new stuffs.
not bad..i tot.at least he has a life of his own..something to enjoy abt...and he's working towards achieving it...
wat am i doing at home?
i dunno...
do i hav a dream?
i hav...
wats ur dream?
to catch fish...
are u doing anything abt it?
G O K....
*i tried asking myself these questions spontaneously...and these are the answers i got..
pls dont ask me y...
sighh...but i know something can be done...its just tat i need the starting point...a hard pinch...someone to kick me off...to wake me up and to tell me to get out of it and move the way i want...to do the things i dream off...to hav the satisfaction of living as a human before i die..
sighhh..where is this person..?
when will she/he come?......
im waiting...
well, dun worry a book of ash, ashes wil do all he can to keep u alive...
sighh...this mundane programemr's life is k i l l i n g me...i seriously dunno wat on earth im doing here...and also back home.
when im asleep im dreamin of failing to connect my application to the damn MySql server...and when i wake up , the first thing tat pops my mind is to type a particular search query on google and search for the right code that i hav been looking for and then so scared tat i might forget it...i quickly grab a paper and write it down before i brush my teeth.
how can this actually happen?
im supposed to be sleeping u know and the first thing i wake up..this thing pops up in my mind...for heaven's sake...i havent even opened my eyes fully....! and im having something in my head...where did it come from!
is my soul doing some part time job?
sighhh..tat makes me wonder was i really sleeping...?
no wonder im yaaaaaawnnnnninnnggg away in the office...T__T
n after im ready..i sit in front of my pc n try out the code since i still hav some time before i leave for work.
...where is my life....
how i wish i was doing somethin tat i enjoyed..h o w i w i s h
during lunch today this question suddenly poped out and one of colleague said tat he wants to become a chef and has an idea of opening a restaurant with 3 floors..one for malaysian food..one for chinese/korean/japanese food and another one for italian food..hebat eh?
i never knew we had a chef in house.
anyway...at least he has a dream..and it seems he's cooking at home to try out new stuffs.
not bad..i tot.at least he has a life of his own..something to enjoy abt...and he's working towards achieving it...
wat am i doing at home?
i dunno...
do i hav a dream?
i hav...
wats ur dream?
to catch fish...
are u doing anything abt it?
G O K....
*i tried asking myself these questions spontaneously...and these are the answers i got..
pls dont ask me y...
sighh...but i know something can be done...its just tat i need the starting point...a hard pinch...someone to kick me off...to wake me up and to tell me to get out of it and move the way i want...to do the things i dream off...to hav the satisfaction of living as a human before i die..
sighhh..where is this person..?
when will she/he come?......
im waiting...
posted by ashes at 6:36 AM
24 Comments:
hey ash, you beat to the depressive what am I doing with my life post ! I was about to write something like that too. Well at least someone shares my feelings, hahaha
ahhahah...actually i just intended to write a short "giving-life-to-my-blog" speech...and suddenly it ended up tis way.
aisayy..to much stress oredi la..the words floooding away...:P
eh typo, i wanted to say "you beat me to writing it" haha...im going to do that soon, just wait
ahhah...yay..lets see wat our pun has to complain...ahhah..im sure Cat plays an important role too..:P
Cats? shouldn't that be bunnies?
talking about depression on our jobs, I think it's because we dun spend enough of our free time relaxing... until we can now dream of work
sigh
haha ash, jus go volunteer urself at some orphanage at weekends. Im sure you will meet more ppl will your interest there , and then... lalalala
ahha..eng..tis Cat we talking abt is a cat with two legs...looks more like human..can talk n all...;)
exactly...even today morning all my dreams had some MySql statements in it.it was so wierd...its like suddenly i find a paper and there's some query there..and the next dream i see someone scribbling some query on the wall.....sighh...i really dunno wats happenin
ahahha..and then we sing a duet song issit pun?like those in bollywood movies...ahha..teh problem is..i can't dance.
AHAHAHa, I imagine you 2 dancing while the kids all hold hands and form a circle around you guys, and go round and round...
ahahhah...aiseh...tis is the bad part of too many bollywood movies.
everyone now knows how to shoot a song scene adi..ahhaha
If I were good at macromedia flash I would do that scene of you dancing, haha... but I suck at it
*pops head in*
*smirks*
Ehehehehe...
*pops out*
*grins and whistles*
Ahem...I too have been dreaming a lot lately, waking up before my alarm goes off...but the dreams weren't related to work, but...something more odd. HAHAHA!
Jyrenze: ROFLMAO! OMG! IMAGINE ASH DOING THAT! OMG OMG! SO CUTE! CAMERA CAMERA!
Ash: Come come, I teach you ballet...
pun..prepare the song also ya.not just the dance alone..haha
ahhah...steffi y not giv us some details on those "odd" dreams...i'm sure steffi's dreams would be interesting.
and no..it wont be cute..i can assure u tat!
ahha..tat means stefii know how to dance la?aiseh...neva tell me oso..
ashes: uh...it's ok...I've forgotten what I was dreaming about. >.<
You never asked if I could...but I can't dance your bollywood dances lah.
wow... you guys can actually remember your dreams??
I know I can't... so Steffi, pls let us know the details ok???
talking about dancing, maybe we all can join one class...
we can also meet up everyweek already by then...
:P
aha..now i know y eng is suggesting this..we forgot tat we hav a "dancer" in house...i think learning how to dance like eng(minus the lion n all) would be fun...just imagine tat..
we're dancing like him..but minus the accessories...aahhaahah...cool guys!
yea.. we can also do tango and ballroom dancing. Not to forget the red hot Salsa as well
I can imagine the great fun seeing Steffi banging ppl around with her clumsiness and you and Pun just standing there giggling away...
hahahaha
...clumsy? Moi? -_- I have not fallen down during my ballet classes so far. Nor have I banged into ppl. I, however, have been kicked in the rear by a classmate who underestimated the distance between her and I. Itai...T_T
Well steffi, u and eng can dance for us at our next gathering then. Looking foward to it ! *grins
ahhaha...yeaa...hey tat would be great la.
or at least steffi should giv us a small show la.
i seriously wanna see it!
you'll be seeing a gorrilla and a cat dancing wouldn't it???
I'm the cat and she's the gorilla
:P
I never knew you were a pussy, eng...
AHAHHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAA....pussy!somehow tis word seems damn funny and some more when it is associated with eng!
aahhaha..this is interesting!!!
meow...
so start thinking that what you want at the last....however, not only you...all of us start worrying our future life.Wanna being programmer how many years?i always ask this to myself. still got 30 yrs to go.that is the long journey have to go. when this starting and dunno when it ends. this is the question..now only starting. that is the best way to go.....either become teacher or u do your own business......
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