i didnt know okay...

being new to the office, im still kinda learning the other colleagues habbits and norms..u know stuffs like..if you are the first one in the office, u must switch on the lights.if u are the last one to leave, u must lock the main door,off the lights,leave the middle light on..and all these craps.
its just my second week...so i cannot say i know them all...im still observing and learning.

this morning..i was the first one to come in.there are two doors leading into my department..one is the main door and the other is the side one.
ever since my first day here...the main door has been always open.but i know they will close it in the evening after 6pm because i saw a notice behind the door stating tat the door should be closed after 6pm to avoid the alarm from being activated coz these doors here got some sort of a electronic controller to lock and unlock it.you are supposed to swipe your id and then only it will open.but since people are walking in and out in and out of my department...during working hours, they will disable the eletronic check thingie and leave the door open.but in the evening they will activate it back.

today morning, i was the first one to arrive and the main door was locked. so i proceeded to the side door and swiped my card n came in. when i was at my place..i was thinking of opening the main door..but i couldnt see any button or switch to unlock it.scared tat i might trigger the alarm off or somethin,i just left it. dunwanna act smart u see.

after awhile, another malay colleague came(i havent spoken to him b'for)..he tried opening the main door from outside but couldnt.so he walked 2 the second door..which is just like 10 more extra steps from the main one.i mean..for me its not such a long walk la..but i noticed him doing this while walking...

he was shaking his head, looking irritated like as if now because the door couldnt open, the extra 10 steps he has to take would cost his spiky hair to fall flat.he looked irritated and angry while walking.
so i thought he must be mad wit the management or somethin for not opening the door.
so i just ignored him.

but when he came in...he walked straight pass me without even looking up to say "morning"(i was the only living creature sitting in the office tat time)..well i guess this shows how frenly he is...anyway..not that im dying to hear his voice or anythin.
i just buat dunno...

he proceeded to the main door and did somethin ..and..
the door opened!
and he continued shaking his head..like u know...saying.."tis kinda simple thing oso kenot do"

so now u know..who he was mad at.
i guess he was irritated with my attitude for not opening the door...he tot i was being lazy or selfish for not thinking about others.

BUT HEY..i tried okay!i tried!
and i just couldnt figure out how to do it..!
i mean,its not like the HR gave me a one day training to learn how to open and close door locks and activate and de-activate the company alarm...im still learning u stupid clown!

i just felt irritated wit tat stupid reaction of his.u know...early in the morning u come to work..and here comes a clown to spoil the start of your day.
anyway..im glad i didnt open it.serves him right.for a person like this..im not gonna waste my energy doing them a favour.if he has to walk another round around the building just to get in..let it be.
at least he can reduce his tummy a bit.

i hate seeing men behaving like woman..onli ladies complain for tis kinda small things...really overreacting for a small stupid thing...i almost felt like punching his face when i saw him doing tat...damn bengang.
since i couldnt do that..im doing this.

you are not a local, are you?

words, words and more words...
i've never spent 5 long days just reading and reading in my entire life!
from 9am to 5.30pm...all i need to do is read all the documents related to the system i am supposed to be handling...use case diagrams, sequence diagrams and all the possible UML diagrams you can ever imagine...adooii...memang kenot tahan adi. hundrends and hundreds of pages i had to flip..and as if thats not enough, i'm supposed to understand all the unexplainable Java technologies which i have never bothered to look at in my entire life..(seriously..i am not a JAVA fan!)
T__T

hehe..ok well i think its not really nice to start the post with a negative comment about my first week at work.
to be truthful, besides the fact that i had to read an entire library(well..it felt like that), my first week was kinda okay.well at least better than i expected it to be.

after listening to comments from my dear buddies about all the politics in big companies n all, i kinda prepared myself for the worst. i mean, its kinda common that big companies usually have some bullies and unfriendly people that you'd have to bear with. so well, mentally i was ready to face this.
however, to my suprise..it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be..;)

my company consists of few different departments. there's those normal ones like HR & Admin, Finance, Accounting and so on.
and there are also different departments among the Development Team as well. we're divided according to the type of projects we handle.those Communications and Multimedia based systems are handled by one department. then there are those who handle major government projects and Education & Training type of projects.
my department is the one that handles the government projects such as hospital systems and each one of our dept has around 10 to 20 staffs.

i am the youngest in my whole entire department(around 20 of us in mine), the other colleagues are way more senior to me (age ranging from 29 to 60). so when i first entered, i felt kinda sesat, i couldnt figure out how i was going to fit in among them. i just knew i was gonna be facing those long periods being a lost kid among them.

and again, it wasnt as bad as i anticipated, amazingly, the person whom i join for lunch(is a new recruit who is 40 yrs old), seems to be way much younger at heart than i thought he would be. during lunch, we spend time talkin about music artist like Sting, about when he first started smoking and how he was forced to quit smoking and how he once had the opportunity to go for lunch with Ravi Shankar (a famous sitar player) and so on..
i mean..for me, this is more than enuff.at least he's cool about things and he seems to be able to join me with my kinda thing instead of getting me to join his kinda thing..
and my Project Manager is a very jovial, happy-go-lucky kinda lady as well, kinda playful and always laughing.she seems to be able to laugh for every a small joke and tells us funny things about our senior bosses..hehe. sometimes i would join her for lunch too.
the other seniors there are more or less like this as well.so at least its not so boring when it comes to hanging out with them during lunch n all.

one of the prob is the fact that the office is damn quiet when its work time. i am so used to at least chat once in a while wit my colleagues in my previous company. but now, i can go on for 4 long hours not even saying one word to anyone.sometimes i get this feeling like as if i forgot how to talk...hehe..tat was a bit difficult for me at first.but now kinda used to it.

another interesting thing that caught my attention was the fact that my company has a sports club on our 3rd floor. we just have to pay RM5 for membership fees every month and we can use all the facilities there..gym, badminton court n so on...hehe..well tat thing kinda attracted me.i always wanted to try out in a gym.maybe one of these days i'll go check it out.

overall it went kinda okay.im just glad that i can at least mix around with these people..as for me, i cant stand a boring environment where i cant chat with anyone.tat will just make me feel not motivated to go to work.and somehow...this time, driving all the way to Cyberjaya doesnt feel that bad at all.last year...i used to dread every single moment i was in cyberjaya, i felt so lost and bored to death there...all i wanted to do each time i got there was to count how many hours more is left before i can get back home.

when i got this job again in Cyberjaya...those old memories began to haunt me.but somehow..now that i am there..it doesnt feel that bad..maybe i guess it is the environment, it is is more lively here than my first job.that time it was just 4 of us in the entire floor...man...memang kenot tahan.

im just the kind of person who is not used to quiet places..i love places with lots of humans and to me that makes the place full of energy..to remind me that im alive and not dead.

ohh yeah...about my title.
i was at the lift and one of my malay colleague came to me and introduced himself.i said my name n all, then he asked me.."you are not a local, are you?"
i said "i AM local"...and he was like "SERIOUSLYY???oh my god.."

and i was like...wtf!
i wonder how did i look like to him..i mean..the most common thing tat people say about me is i look like a malay and they wouldnt believe me if i tell them tat im an indian..and im kinda used to that.
but malay people come from malaysia rite?rite?

arghhhhhhh..i suddenly have this strange feeling that now people start to think that i look like a bangla or somethin..i must be having this wierd look.
man..this explains why tat RHB Bank fella asked me to bring all those crazy documents!!
he must hav thought tat im some foreigner or somethin!

T___T
...thanks mom n dad..for making me look so special...
for all u know..next u will be finding me squatting in a cramped boat in Pelabuhan Kelang...ready to be sent back to indonesia...oh yeah..if u r lucky...maybe catch me in Buletin Utama.

5 years ago...

exactly 5 years ago, on this very date, i set my foot into APIIT for my first Diploma orientation class.
5 long years...

looking back at the number of amazing people i've met, i am more than glad to say that i'm proud that i can now call a few more fantastic individuals from this face of earth, my good buddies..;)

little did i expect that APIIT was going to change so many things in my life..and it has been an amazingly wonderful journey for me to have been given the opportunity to spend time with these great people and get to know them and i must admit that these guys have added a lot of colours to the grey ash..;)

even APIIT itself was a great place to be, not only did it shape me to be a professional software engineer, it also thought me how to do great research papers(ah c'mon..u guys know what i mean dont u?..:P)
hahah..nevertheless, those memorable 4 years has definetely changed me to be the person i am now...good or bad..u decide..:)

and im glad that we're still connected in some way although it has been almost a year since we left APIIT...and for those whom i no longer chat with or email...those memorable moments spent with u guys will always be with me (im a guy who doesnt forget my pass u know..i like to treasure it..;)).

i just hope we could hang out more often...its always relaxing to get back once in a while to let ourselves free..to be like we used to be when we were much younger..;)


and tomorrow, i would be embarking on another journey...good or bad, i'm yet to know.
i went tru a lot of obstacles and ups and downs before i could even start working here...but there was always a positive light that kept me clinging to it somehow..and finally tommorrow i will be starting my first day.
i dont know if all these waiting was worth it or it was just another game fate playing on me.
i'll just keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best...worst come to worst, i'll be just looking for another job...but till then, i just hope everything goes fine.