Friday, December 23, 2005

changed again...

well yeah...i decided to change my layout to a much simpler looking one. i very much liked the previous design but somehow i tot it makes my blog layout look a bit messy. to many boxes here n there..aih..makes it look all complicated..a simple one is better.

phiewww...it seems like it has been ages since i last updated my blog. i just realized that my last post was dated back 1 December..and now we're almost reaching the end of month...end of the year to be exact.
i seriously dunno how fast things are moving around me until i see such things (e.g. the date of my last blog update)...this kind of dates makes me look back and see how much time, how many things i hav gone tru to be in this state right here right now.
how many things i wanted to do but still hav not achieved yet...how many things that i tot i won't hav to do but now im doing it...aihhh...no matter how nice u plan your life..no matter how confident you are in thinking that you can achieve what u hav planned...ONLY the thing that has been planned for you by someone will happen..and there is nothing you can do about it.
just go tru it...and giv your best shot.

for those of you who hav been chatting with me lately..u would roughly get the idea of what i am going tru.i seriously feel as if i would fall sick if i just look back and think of wat i hav been doing these few days..the tot of it itself is enuff to giv me a severe headache...i never knew i could push myself to this extent...
in fact im still pushing..
i just hope there is still a little more space left and im not reaching the end of the road...im gonna just hurt myself if i force myself to move when i dont hav anymore space left.
(i shall not explain wat i've been doing here..just in case the info falls into the wrong hands..u know wat i mean)

even 2 hours of complete rest seems so impossible..
even tat 2 hours of sleep is not peacefull...wierd things keep popping in my head even when im asleep which only makes me even more tired when i wake up.

im really looking forward for a good rest this weekend..i just wanna do the things i used to do for at least 2 complete days...without having to worry abt anything else in my head.
all my daily life routines seems to be so far away from me...i guess they are waiting for me to call them back...bring them back closer to me..attached to the owner once again.

even as im typing this at this time...im supposed to be finishing somethin else...
aih..wat the heck..tat thing can wait.
just hope i can finish it by 7am tmr...
another sleepless night i guess.

anyway folks...have a nice weekend...enjoy urself with the things that you love to do while you can..watching tv for the whole day..lying on the sofa reading some magazine...spending the whole morning just chatting crap stories with your sis...running out of the house n calling the "surat khabar lama" guy n ask him to take the old newspapers...digging the fridge to see if there is anything to eat...making a milo for urself and watching a movie while drinking it..
aihh...how long it has been since i last did one of those...
..only those things would remind you that you are still human..

anyway guys...enjoy the few last days of 2005 with memorable and joyful things and i would like to wish all of yeh a happy christmas ..;)

89 Comments:

Blogger Jyrenze said...

well ash, as eng said b4.. if we dont push ourselves to the limit now while we are still young, when only shall we do it? hehe..thats a thought ya? Anyway at least its an experience la, hopefully you can have a peaceful weekend

4:07 PM  
Blogger ashes said...

yeah pun..in a way tats kinda true.i agree.
hehe..i guess this kinda things only makes u more tahan lasak.
and true enuff..as time passes by..im begining to get more relax even when i hav lots of pressure.i dun get paranoid or start screaming around.

i guess...the more hardship u go tru the stronger u get..heheheh...so i guess i will just push my limits!

5:43 PM  
Blogger Eng said...

brada... what happened to you lar??
mind sparing me with a little details? ppl like you where can feel pressure wan???

7:18 PM  
Blogger Jyrenze said...

well eng, try sleeping 2 hours a day like ash and you will feel pressure from any small thing, hahaha

10:28 PM  
Blogger ashes said...

ahhah...eng..i dun look like a person who easily gets pressured issit?
aiseh..i must be really good at covering up la i guess.

tell u wat ...come n stay wit me one day...heheh...my dad would be ever willing to tell u interesting "tales" abt our Mr.Ash here..im sure even the walls of my house would want to join in the conversation as they are one of the objects i throw my tantrum at..ahahhahhaha..:P

sure...y not..i will let ya know the details when we chat in MSN..;)

10:57 PM  
Blogger Eng said...

me staying over at your place???
sure...why not???!!!!

you organise one party (New Year's eve's coming... hint hint), I'll go there, enjoy myself and only come home the next day...

I'll then spend the night listening to your dad about you...
hehehehe

12:49 AM  
Blogger ashes said...

wahhh...one invite resulted in such a big plan...ahhaha...yea...y not eh..new year party sounds good..
but tell u somethin la eng...after listening sure ur will regret y on earth u ever celebrated new yr tis way!
ash's tales i gonna drive u nuts..:P

11:31 PM  
Blogger Eng said...

no worries...
it's a cause of joy and celebration

we celebrate so that we'll have a new beginning next year...

8:42 AM  
Blogger ashes said...

ahaahahah...not bad!
just hope tat after listening chun dun start avoiding me..:P
then tats a bad start for a year adi!

ahahha..just kiddin!

1:50 PM  
Blogger StephanieC said...

Well, it's the New Year now and I wish you a more relaxing 2006 than 2005 eh, Ash? This time, unwind yourself by JOINING us on our next trip to ostrich park *hint hint*.

2:44 PM  
Blogger Jyrenze said...

Tomorrow is the day ash. FOr goodnes sakes update your blog with the trip when we get back !

6:46 PM  
Blogger StephanieC said...

"no matter how confident you are in thinking that you can achieve what u hav planned...ONLY the thing that has been planned for you by someone will happen..and there is nothing you can do about it."

So very true...

12:17 AM  
Blogger ashes said...

ehhe...ok pun, wish granted...i did make it in the end..:P

yeap steff...i just dun hav any second toughts abt tat statement..;)

11:18 PM  
Blogger Eng said...

where did that statement come from?

3:10 AM  
Blogger ashes said...

from my post eng...3rd paragraph..;)

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