changed again...

well yeah...i decided to change my layout to a much simpler looking one. i very much liked the previous design but somehow i tot it makes my blog layout look a bit messy. to many boxes here n there..aih..makes it look all complicated..a simple one is better.

phiewww...it seems like it has been ages since i last updated my blog. i just realized that my last post was dated back 1 December..and now we're almost reaching the end of month...end of the year to be exact.
i seriously dunno how fast things are moving around me until i see such things (e.g. the date of my last blog update)...this kind of dates makes me look back and see how much time, how many things i hav gone tru to be in this state right here right now.
how many things i wanted to do but still hav not achieved yet...how many things that i tot i won't hav to do but now im doing it...aihhh...no matter how nice u plan your life..no matter how confident you are in thinking that you can achieve what u hav planned...ONLY the thing that has been planned for you by someone will happen..and there is nothing you can do about it.
just go tru it...and giv your best shot.

for those of you who hav been chatting with me lately..u would roughly get the idea of what i am going tru.i seriously feel as if i would fall sick if i just look back and think of wat i hav been doing these few days..the tot of it itself is enuff to giv me a severe headache...i never knew i could push myself to this extent...
in fact im still pushing..
i just hope there is still a little more space left and im not reaching the end of the road...im gonna just hurt myself if i force myself to move when i dont hav anymore space left.
(i shall not explain wat i've been doing here..just in case the info falls into the wrong hands..u know wat i mean)

even 2 hours of complete rest seems so impossible..
even tat 2 hours of sleep is not peacefull...wierd things keep popping in my head even when im asleep which only makes me even more tired when i wake up.

im really looking forward for a good rest this weekend..i just wanna do the things i used to do for at least 2 complete days...without having to worry abt anything else in my head.
all my daily life routines seems to be so far away from me...i guess they are waiting for me to call them back...bring them back closer to me..attached to the owner once again.

even as im typing this at this time...im supposed to be finishing somethin else...
aih..wat the heck..tat thing can wait.
just hope i can finish it by 7am tmr...
another sleepless night i guess.

anyway folks...have a nice weekend...enjoy urself with the things that you love to do while you can..watching tv for the whole day..lying on the sofa reading some magazine...spending the whole morning just chatting crap stories with your sis...running out of the house n calling the "surat khabar lama" guy n ask him to take the old newspapers...digging the fridge to see if there is anything to eat...making a milo for urself and watching a movie while drinking it..
aihh...how long it has been since i last did one of those...
..only those things would remind you that you are still human..

anyway guys...enjoy the few last days of 2005 with memorable and joyful things and i would like to wish all of yeh a happy christmas ..;)